~In-The-Machine

First off, I've been uploading a lot of things lately mostly because I just wanted to get them out of the way before I go away for a few weeks. So they won't nag at my mind.

I'll be gone for almost a month, starting two days from now. Most likely nothing will be submitted during that period of time.

Yay you.

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I actually leave on Sunday. Something came up.
Sorry dudes.

NOTMYFAULTPLZDONTKILL

So I just finished reading the Abarat Sequel.

But something disturbed me. _{Like always.}

Mild Spoilers ahead:(for those of you who read it)
So there's this guy named Finnegan Hob right? And there's this chick named Princess Boa and they were in love and shit and were gonna get all married and have beautiful babies and do some great shit together.

But this bad guy, Carrion, has a dragon come and kill her on her wedding day out of jealousy.

Hob, the guy she was gonna marry, flew into a rage and killed the dragon after the dragon killed her.

Then he makes a vow to kill every single Dragon in the Abarat because of the crime of one dragon.

While dragons in the Abarat do appear to be vicious beasts, I thought to myself, is that really fair?!

_{By the way the guy actually does manage to slaughter almost all of them. But not quite.}


Why should the entire race suffer the for crime of one?


Just because a single dragon killed his soon-to-be wife it suddenly makes it okay for him to punish all the rest...?

And none of the other heroes of the book seem to object to this.

Even if they're dragons, it is still mass genocide.

The death of an entire species.


Oh, sure. It it were bunnies or pandas it would be wrong. But with dragons it's okay...? Because they're not soft and cute...?


Anyway...Another thing I wanted this to be about was that I notice things like this with a lot of the heroes in books.

Although they'd like to think of themselves as heroes, they do things like this that are often quite similar to villains.

The only difference is that they're doing it under the guise that they're good guys and everything they do is good and right and fair and they're always being the ones being wronged.

This is another reason why I'm not as much into the "light" side. Because a lot of times they turn out to be hypocrites.

I mean, yeah, a lot of the evil guys do bad shit (even they can be hypocritical) but I've seen hypocrisy a lot more with the "good" guys at times than the bad.

Because it's easier for me to like the sides that's going "Yeah, I'm evil. I won't deny it. I'm a complete ass. What the hell are you gonna do about it?"

Than the side that goes "Oh, we're good. None of this is our fault. Yeah, we sometimes do the same shit but we are the ones in the right. It's okay for us to murder and do crimes in the name of "good."


Yes. The bad guys do often provoke the good ones. Yes, sometimes the good guys are forced to commit certain crimes.

But it's times when I see stuff like that that is equally evil done by good guys and a lot of times they don't question it. They just do it and assume that it is right while they are quick to look down on and point fingers at the opposite side when they do the same damn shit.


I'm not saying it's always like this but:

Sometimes there's the side that does bad.

Then there's the side that does bad under a charade of justice and good.



Anyway, I probably wouldn't have written a journal like this it if weren't for the fact I see it so much in books I've read. -_-

It just gets...Kinda miserable....


..And I get people IRL saying things like, "Why do you usually like the bad guy?"

This is basically one of the reasons why.



Before when I was younger it was always," Because evil is KICKASS. _{Some days it still is. You wear black and kick the shit outta asses you don't like and you don't take crap}.

But now this is more of the reason at times.


I bore you guys outta your minds yet?

I know, such trivial BS right?


I mean, the good guys are fighting for the greater good but there are times when they do villian-ish things along the side and still insist that they are in the right that pisses me off.
And sometimes the good guys create bad guys.

I think I'm done now -_-

Sup.

I heard about this new manga called 'Deadman Wonderland' awhile back. Anyone else hear about it...? Same guy also apparently did 'Eureka Seven.'

So I finally checked it out.

And now I'm hooked. I've finally found something promising again after going a while without any good manga/anime.

My boredom is cured.


I'm not going to give anything away. So don't ask.
_{There's always Wikipedia.}
However, you should be warned that there is a large amount of violence~


[link]

Alright. Time for a serious journal entry. And a rant.
You have been forewarned so don't be an annoying bitch about it.

Don't bother telling me to calm down now either please.
It's annoying as shit.





You know.
Sometimes, certain people really aren't all that great.

You ever have it when you really admire someone or something and then get horribly let down when they turn out to be less than that?

You ever admire a certain something, looked up to that something, whatever it may be, only to find out it's merely trash.

Arrogant trash.


They were no better, no less biased, no less racist, no more intelligent or wise than anyone else.
They were pigs just like all the rest.

Then you realize that you spent all your time idolizing and looking up to these people when in truth there was really nothing there to begin with.

Then you feel sick that you ever admired or liked these people at all. All that time you spent praising and complimenting them.
You feel like you should've realized it sooner and maybe listened to certain people.


Then we've got these same bastards looking down on you or maybe a group you associate with.
Or maybe even judging you for something like race, country or origin, people you hang out with, what you like, before they even know you.


It has thus led to my startling conclusion that
People are fucking bullshit.


PART ONE END



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Certain, people then intelligently inform you that you are an angry bastard and you need to stop.



Gee.

I wonder whay that fucking is...?


You're so smart. Why don't you give yourselves a big fat fuckin' pat on that back for how smart you fuckers are?


Gee. I wish I could be smart like you. I am so wrong you know? I wish I could live my life correctly like you fuckers and love all the time and not hate anything.
Because it's my fucking fault for all this shit that happens that I can't escape or resolve for awhile you know...?

Christ...It's not like I went to your page and stated retard-ass obvious shit and insulted you.

And it's especially wrong for me to blow off steam with online rants in my little domain of the internets.
Because sometimes it's the only thing you can do to avoid ripping out somethings throat.

Or would you rather I do that...?


And it's so wrong of me to be angry at certain things.
So horribly wrong.

And, gee.

I'm sorry that I scare some of you with my seeming hatred and pessimism.


So I make a few stamps and quite suddenly, I have a big fuckin' problem and various people telling me how to live my fuckin' life.

Awesome.


Let's get one thing clear.

I make fuckin' stamps.

It's all I can do until I get a scanner or Photoshop stops pissing me off. Or I stop pissing Photoshop off.

A lot of them aren't meant to be taken seriously.

So shut the fuck up about it.



_{Pessimism or GTFO} LOL

PART TWO END

Anyway.
Then we've got those other people who then maybe come to your page and leave comments to try and bring you down and contradict you at every turn and point out what a hideous sinning bastard slime-shit you are.


Another thing I hate is how they love to think of themselves as the martyr and the saint and the self-fucking-righteous who would just salivate at the chance to point out all of your wrongs and what you did bad.
And then they act like they've been totally sinned against.


And then we have the "zomg were you talking about me?!" group that thinks every journal entry or every angsty poem is about them
because they are that fucking self-centered and have their heads stuck so far up their ass.
Even when you've never met some of these people before in your life.


And then we have the one's that say, "Well, if you're gonna be so hateful/pessimistic/angsty/whatever then why don't you just GTFO?


OH! SO SUDDENLY YOU'RE MY BOSS NOW?! IS THAT FUCKING RIGHT?! YOU THINK YOU CAN SUDDENLY TELL ME WHAT TO DO THEN I'LL DO IT?! HUH?! HUH?!
Uh, no you fucking cock-sucking bitch.
You GTFO. If you're that fucking offended you cunt-sucking pussy.


Cursing helps to blow off steam. I'm glad cussing exists. Sometimes, you really need that extra-strong vocab.


It's like listening to angry music when you feel like bitch-slapping someone a thousand times then tearing out their eyes and shoving their genitals into a blender.

In other words, it feels good.










_{And, no. This is not directed at any specific people so it would be best if you didn't start bitching about that either.}


And yes. I am aware that no one, anywhere, loves everything.

Except the mentally-unstable or the drug-using.

I'm fucking back you guys.

Yay.

So I had this dream.

It was so awesome that I think it's got my motivational juices flowing again.

I'm gonna write some more shit.


You bastards left me over 591 messages.

I love the hell outta all of you.


FUN FACT: I have not slept for two days and I feel funny.






New trance/techno song: [link]

Also! Do any of you know any online converters where I can rip sound from video? Safe, fast, and easy?

Vidtomp3.com doesn't seem to be working for me.

THANKS11111